Lost voice

Well, i think the 1st think that came across my mind about what i should jot down here right now is; i lost my voice! i could hardly utter any comprehensible audible sound from my mouth since 2 days ago and today was the 3rd day. Honestly speaking, whenever i say something out, it sounds like itik serati, in fact i need to repeat few times to people so that that they can understand what i'm trying to say. in short life at the office is hard today, not to mention that most of my office mates are either smiling sheepishly whenever i talked or made fun or me. Well, who cares, what i plan to do for today is to finish my office time if not entirely to the end, i'll rush off to home and get ready for my piano class. I haven't practiced anything on my new song.

The last 2 days was worse, i had pain in my throat especially if i swallowed anything even my own saliva and i cannot speak out anything. Thank got i managed to go to Qistina clinic nearby and had new medicine for my throat problem. The doctor gave me a new stronger antibiotic and according to me galfren, they were expensive; RM10 per pill. Other pills are the one to tone down my phlegm which horribly stucked at my throat. After taking them, i felt a little bit better. I even asked for a one-day-MC so that i could have enough rest; i felt a bit tak-sedap-badan lately. perhaps this was because of my hectic routine that i went through after my coming back from Kota Bharu.

There were few unfinished things that i want to post here but couldn't have such suitable time ending up me procrastinating even longer. Things inside my mind like; about my children, i wish i could jot down personally on each of them, my experience during Stong mountain climbing, joining the water rafting at Sungai kampar, Gopeng and the next upcoming event which is Standard Chartered 11.8 km run.

A half day trip to Jeram Linang, Pasir Puteh

My last 2nd day with my kids was the most fun of all for them, i've planned a visit to Jeram Linang Pasir Puteh where they can play river water from the flowing waterfall nearby. i managed to convinced Kak Nor and my youngest brother, Ja to bring along their family joining the trip. Well, i guessed it was not that hard to convince them cause now was the school holiday and it looked like they haven't spend anywhere outdoor except staying at home. So there were my family, Kak Nor's family and Ja's family, and my mom that joined in the trip to Jeram Linang. As far as i remembered, there was none of any outdoor trip done until now which involved most of my mom's family member. Kak Nor has agreed to help by preparing the food; cooking gulai ayam (i guessed it was kerutuk ayam to exact) and a pot of rice while i financially sponsor 2 chickens and mineral water for every one. And Ja, mmm not exactly know what his direct contribution except physically showing up at the trip.

Anyway, the plan didn't go pretty smooth cause on the night where Kak Nor was supposed to cook the gulai, the whole area including my mom's house and Kak nor's were in total blackout. There was no electricity since 7pm until passed mid nite. All of us stayed up in black darkness and unbearable heat the whole nite. My kids and I spent most of the nite outside the house cause it was too hot stay inside and moreover there was a lamp light from a neaby TNB pole. Hafiz claimed this was their first experience staying in the longest blackout ever. It was their first experience ever that they took bath outside in the open air at night using the tap water for the garden. It was a kind of fun and funny though, that Hafiz and Hakim bathed in naked while Dania and Madia wore underware; and they took shower in the shade behind my mom's house trees. Unlike the other days, i took them out for dinner at nearby warung. Dania and Madiha were in desperately sleepy during the meal. Poor them..

Kak Nor woke up at 5am on the day that we suppose to have the trip and started cooking the food for everybody. I really appreciate her effort. That day, i woke up my children very early cause i promise Kak Nor that we should start moving at half past seven. Anyway, after having so much difficulties in waking up the kids especially Hakim, the heavy sleeper, and make them took bathe and packed up things for the trip i could only manage to arrive at Kak Nor's at 8:30am. She was already ready to go.

The journey to Jeram Linang took close to an hour; thank god there was no traffic jam at all on the road heading to Pasir Puteh. I guessed people were still lazing off on bed despite it was already half past 9 in the morning. On the way, we stopped by at the last Petronas gas station and bought last minutes necessities such as whole lot of bread and tonnes of mineral waters. We only able to arrive at Jeram Linang around 10 am. Honestly speaking on my personal view of Hutan Lipur Jeram Linang, it was not that amusing. The place was slightly in bad condition with sakit-mata-memandang sight of rubbish everywhere. Well in short it was a bit dirty for such an attracting waterfall spot for domestic tourist. I guess this would my first visit after 20 years ago and my last visit. It was quite obvious that the local authority didn't take good care of the place. In terms of the public utilities, they were quite okay; there are range of stalls welcoming the guests at the entrance, public paid toilets, untidy play ground for kids and some building structure and campsite area for those who wish to camp here. In addition, there was some locals selling air toy-like buoy for kids roughly at below RM15 and renting tyre tubes at a cost of RM3.

Anyway, besides the place that could not meet my expectation especially the hygiene aspect all the kids were having fun playing with water. the actual waterfall is a bit far uphill, one needs to climb the cement-stairs heading to the top and most of the visitors never did. The rest of the visitors spent time at the bottom of the waterfall where the local authority built some obstacle-step-like structure to slow down the water flow so that small kids can play water safely.

Well, I'm glad that i managed to bring Hafiz, Hakim, Dania and Madiha for a trip to Jeram Linang. I hope this could be one of the most memorable experience spending time with their abah. Love you all.

7 days spending time with my kids

My spending time with kids started from 3rd June until 10th June 2012. It was a 7-day-vacation with them at my mom's house in Kota Bharu. I received the SMS reminder on my birthday which was on 29th May (coincidentally it was Dania's birthday also). It took me the following day for me to reply the SMS by calling directly the phone number cause i didn't realise it the day the SMS was sent. On 1st June, i rushed back to kota Bharu by driving. It was so happen that i have bought a bus ticket to kelantan on that friday a week before, not knowing that my kids were already in Kota Bharu. Well it seemed like i completely wasted 2 RM40 bus ticket this month; the first one was when i was at Port Dickson for my office team building and the 2nd one was i drove back home instead of riding the bus.

I just thought that it would be a good mental record for me to jot this down, cause i perfectly sure that right after me arriving to KL, insyaAllah tomorrow, i won't remember of making this as a my personal note anymore.

The only good workout in Kota Bharu.

Preparing food for my kids means literally cooking their meal for every breakfast, lunch and dinner; in fact i need to make sure that a jug full of milo is always available inside the fridge. My life during my stay here at Kota Bharu when spending time and taking care of them was packed and i was truly like a fully housewife except the fact that i'm not unemployed and currently on my vacation from my work and obviously a fully function manly male. However i still squeezed my time for a short early morning run jut before i started my routine taking care of them.

I usually run in the morning along the short cut road to Jalan Telipot in which the total distance of going to the end of the road that is the T junction with traffic light and returning to the other end is around 6km. It took me 40 minutes of non-stop run with close to 600 kcal burn. By the time i came back home, it was 8:30am. Personally, it was a good workout especially before i got stucked in handling the kids, and the fact that it was the only workout options i have here. I bet those car drivers who passed me while i was running must be in their puzzling state cause i think i was the only one who run along that busy road in early morning while Kelantanese are busy going for their work.

One thing for sure, once i complete my running, i feel my mind having a sense of relief and my body is much more lighter and energetic. At least it is one way of releasing the tense of being a housewife. Please don't get me wrong, i don't complain about my taking care of my kids; it's just a way of putting the stress out off my mind and have a fulfilling break.

Games for my kids

Yesterday i bought few puzzles having different level of difficulties for my kids and a RM10 football for Hafiz and Hakim. In addition to that, i also bought colour papers for them to do paper-stuff at home.  When i came back home bringing back the games to kids, all of them were pretty excited wanting to play it, especially the board game puzzle. There are 3 levels of puzzles; the most difficult with 1000 pieces of puzzle to be put together to make a complete sceneric picture, a cartoon figure with 104 pieces of puzzle and the easiest level for Madiha which i found it rather unique and cool cause it has a 3D picture. When i gave the 2nd puzzle to the girls, they couldn't wait to do it together; i believe it was quite easy for them. However, the 1000 puzzle pieces was extremely difficult; the pieces are so tiny and one could hardly find its position on the complete picture; Hafiz and Hakim easily got bored of trying to join them together. In fact when i tried on my own thinking i should help them, even i admitted that this was not for kids. Despite of my encouragement to the boys that i will reward them RM20 each if they are able to complete the puzzle before going off, it looks like it was almost impossible. The pieces were scattered everywhere on the bed next door to my room; theere were only few small pieces that were successfully joined together.

The ball that i bought for the boys was suck; i guess they are not the outdoor type so they only played few minutes and hardly touched it anymore.

Anyway, it looks like most of the time, they spent more time on paper cutting, drawings and making hand made paper toys including the boys. Dania said that all of them are art makers, and claimed that Hafiz liked to make robot-related or airplane-related papers, learnt from youtube.

My children and me

This week would be one of my unforgettable moments with my kids. All of them Hafiz, Hakim, Dania and a even Madiha the most timid one are under my care for a week. This would be the time, i want them to remember me being their greatest farther.

I received the first SMS from a familiar number telling me that, i need to go back to Kota Bharu if in case i want to spend time with my kids; if i were not mistaken it was on last Tuesday 7:30pm. I only realised the SMS the next morning cause i was very tired the day i received the SMS cause it was the time i arrived home as usual riding my bike. I made a call the following day and x sister-in-law picked it up, promising me that hafiz my eldest son will make a return call to me at 6pm. Since, i was at my office and the whole day that particular was full; it was quite strange as i usually have ample time to do other stuff, but cot coincidentally the whole week really sucks with office-related tasks. Anyway, Hafiz really made a call and we talked for few minutes. I promised him that i'll pick them up this weekend at Kota Bharu and will spend time with them. well, i couldn't wait to see them, don't know what to expect after not able to see them and contact for more than a year, the incident at Pengkalan Chepa Police station; that was really a havoc.

i wanna to jot down things in this blog so that i'll make sure that someday they know how much i really care for them. I am at Kota Bharu already in my mom's house in Rupek and my children are inside the room ready for a sleep. Today is considered as my 2nd day of me spending time with time. I have to say, in overall things look okay except this afternoon Madiha showed her true colors by crying out loud could not able to stand staying here anymore. I didn't fully understand the reason why she acted that way which made everybody including her brothers and sister in great puzzle, haven't got a clue what to do; not to mention myself as i was quite upset after spending whole lot of money on toys and clothes for her the day earlier just to ensure that she will not make a scene. But what i suspected was; maybe because of Hafiz did something annoying to her while watching TV and changed her mood to bad, and then the worse thing was her auntie and the damn cousins that talked to her over the phone that really-really changed her mind absolutely to not staying anymore here. Damn those bastards cousins, they managed to make things to totally a wreck just by saying that they'll come over to my place to sort-of save her. even i myself made an unforgivable mistake by agreeing that those little bastards should come over her to cool Madiha down. You know what, imagine what will happen if Madiha is surrounded by them and she worsened the scenario by crying her lung out wanting to move from my home. Anyway, just to cut the story short, thanx to Hafiz for his wise-ness telling me that they should not come here worrying that things might get worse. Quickly instructing those bastards not to come here. Good kiddo Hafiz! I really appreciate his thought.

Honestly speaking, my time here was packed with me being a 'house-wife' taking care of the kids, starting from me preparing their breakfast in the morning, lunch and dinner; washing their dirty laundries and ensure that they have enough clean and dry clothes to wear everyday, and to make sure that they are not bored staying here, so i planned out few things for them to do such as to ensure that Aishah my little niece will always be around with them especially Dania and Madia, bought toys where they chose them by themselves; i in fact bought a toy specifically to Aishah also so that everyone of my kids including her are treated fairly.

Well, it was already half past 12 midnite, i have a lot things to jot down in this posting but i am truly exhausted. i guess i'll do it in my next posting.

Love you all my kids; Hafiz, Hakim, Dania and Madiha.