Janda baik

Two days at Janda baik was totally not a waste of time, i've to admit that i truly underestimate the purpose of going and spending time at Janda Baik for an office 'vacation'. Well, why did i say that it was not totally a waste because of the last program that the organiser has conducted which was the motivational talk delivered by one humble guy named ustaz azizan. huh, believe me.. me myself really admit that a motivational talk can give me some benefits? in those time, it'd be insane for me to like any motivational talk. I never thought that his talk was that inspiring, i was in fact purposely attended half an hour late to the event; honestly speaking i despise motivational talk especially those handled by the company i work for. But this one was different; it was that different that made me took notes and mentally make sure that i will blog about it.

Some of the precious notes i captured:

• Stop blaming other people; those who have succeed are the ones who manage to break the circle of blaming others. remember about the story of kicking a kitten, who actually kicks the kitten
• the virtue of believing. Your potential is only limited by your belief. remember about the story of groups of child living in remote areas who only set their dreams to work for TNB just because they see the tower. remember also about the story of groups of teachers and students whom convince that they are the best.

The last story really touched my soul and spirit was about a teenager girl who suffered from heart and lung surgery and in the end had her legs being amputated because of 2nd level post-surgery complication. anyway the girl died

a safe life

This week is a week of mmmmm what i should refer as... i guess a moment of truth. Everyone knows their performance result of last year. In general there will be 2 main groups of people; the first group will be excited, happy, content and satisfactory with the result they get from the management on their yesteryear performance whereas the other one whom is unfortunate will be frustrated, upset, feeling down and even have a flash of mind wanting to commit suicide. perhaps the other one in between of the 2 groups would be the ones who don't care fucking less about the shit of the performance. Well, i admit i'm one of those guys. What can i say, living the shit out of the working culture under babi-sonnomabotch rapai and his gang kaki jilat, has made me sunk down to the bottom of the floor without being able to show that i'm as good as the other performer.  The fact that, my performance result for the rest of the-ones-that-have-ever-remember-until-now show that i'm just an averager, not up to achiever level neither at the non-performer has resulted in me being at the safe side. The risk of being in such group is my career is doomed to a crappy shit! i cannot moved up further for my self development and i can only be as stagnant as previous; only observing other junior kaki-jilat bastards climbing up the ladder.

Aaahh.. tak kesah lah, as long as aku safe kat sini, tiap2 bulan gaji masuk dalam akaun. aku happy buat kerje ikut suka hati aku cam kompeni ni bapak aku punya, ikut suka datang kerje pukul berapa and balik kerje pon suka hati aku. Pergi mampos telekong!


Anyway, from other angle, Terima kasih aku amat appreciate kat telekong dan sumer bos2 bangsat yang bagi aku kerje sampai sekarang kat telekong dan sentiasa rate aku kat average level, pastu bagi gaji kat aku tiap2 bulan tanpa fail. Memang padan muka aku, takde saper pun lebih padan muka banding ngan aku sebab mampos keras tempat sama kerja sampai sekarang. Aku amat appreciate gak kat kompeni telekong ni sebab bagi peluang kat aku buat kompeni macam bapak aku punya kompeni, so amat berbaloilah dgn sumbangan kerja aku ngan gaji yang aku dapat.

What i want to do today

This week would be considered as the last weekday for April; although next week we still have the last day 30th April happens to fall on Monday, i don't consider this as a full working day cause i have my coming court on that particular day; who knows if i can see my children, the rubiah bitch claimed that my x will come to Malaysia to attend this court session. Well there are some things i wanna do today, one of which i perceived as the most mother-fucker office work task - SIB report for projek mangkuk. i plan to complete it at the level of cap kaki ayam quality. Janji siap.

1. Complete SIB report - i should rename it to SIBabi instead!
2. Go through on drupal buildmodule.com seriously. My level of focus on drupal keeps on shy-ing away, thus i need something that can give more clarity to my consciousness & reboost up my concentration & energy.
3. Errr..what else aaaa??? .... hahahha bestnya ni saja yg ada dalam kapla aku!... best! 10x

Most mental day

Today is the most mental day of my life, considering the fact that i have rode my bike for close to 100km distance in a single day. Do you know how i can manage to ride to such freaking out-of-my-mind distance? It was the fact that i have gone to my office twice in a single working day. There was no one else to blame for except myself; freaking losing my mind and bloody absent-minded. This morning, i went off to my office as usual, bringing along some food for my lunch and piano homework, however there was one thing that was not quite right. I have completely forgotten about my notebook that i usually left it locked on my office desk, but last week i brought it back home because i need to email few people in the last minute before going off for my trip to Taman Negara. So, when i arrived at my office, realising that no notebook on my desk, i knew already that today would be a loooooong fucking day. Well, there's no other choice except to return home and pick up my notebook and come back to office. My big-boob boss already reminded me earlier that i must alter some slides for tomorrow's mega awareness to potential customers, so must make it ready by today's evening.

Damned! it would be 2 rounds of trip going back & forth, my home-office-home again-office again. One-way journey is equivalent to 23km. So twice a complete go-and-forth journey would be 23x4 = 96km!!!
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BGP routing

I bumped into this helpful site that explains in great detail with examples on the use of Multi exit discriminator (MED) and local preference. These are the attributes required in BGP config of routers. I think it's good for my understanding at high level, so that is why i post this as a reference for myself.




The link site is http://evilrouters.net/2009/07/20/using-bgps-med-to-influence-inbound-routing/

Evaluation of performance for year 2011

Everybody was slightly anxious and sort of wondering what would be their results based on the rating given by respective bosses and superiors. Well, this is the time when performance of each individual is rated and determined for the purpose of knowing how much effort that particular staff contributed to the company after which a sum of rewards in the form of money will be given to that individual based of their last year work performance. A fact here is, based on my experience of working for such company shit like this, performance as defined here is rather ambiguous and solely dependent on bosses or management interpretations. For lower level of employees, it could mean as their success level of delivering what has assigned to them in the entire yesteryear, but for management, i suspect it could be a mixed of definition; well it could be either performed according to their personal thinking or perfectly following what the actual guideline says. Bu mostly i very believe that anybody who fulfill bosses' criteria will end up either out performed, above average or worst safe enough. Then for those who are not in the wished criteria of the bosses, they may fall into just average despite how much effort they have benefitted to the company or worst become the kambing hitam.

Anyway, for my case, i seriously believe that my result rating would just be average as usual results like before. I'm just nobody in the shit cooperate hierachy!

Haha today i ponteng

I didn't intentionally plan to ponteng or even take leave today, but something happens today. My mom came here together with my brother & his family to stay at my eldest brother's home at bkt mahkota & going off for umrah, so i as one of my mum's son staying in KL must accompany her without fail for her umrah. Failing which would be considered like anak-tak-kenal-budi or close to derhaka, so because of that noble & pious plan, i skipped my work in the morning. As plan that was the real idea, i only absent from my work in the morhing and i would present in the evening. however, when i have sent them at KLIA, and also sent JA & his family at Tune hotel and rushed off back to home because i need to change attire for office, the day was so soooo hot and it was already 3:30 by the time i arrived home. i was already tired and so i doze off.... that's when i arealized that ponteng work is like the only option left in my mind.

In short i just woke up now and it's already 6:30pm. HAhaha aku ponteng keje!!

Memang Babi Bangsat punya kess

This is how i call as babi bangsat nih!! they can make an exception for other people's project where as for mine, i still have to follow bangsat redtape hierachical levels of reporting despite it was actual from-a-scratch piece of idea that i managed to make it so fully established. i started to learn here that there is also a manager-level person that can lead a big LOB-level initiative. I have to develop from totally a scratchy ideas to a fully established concept paper that is workable on my own and of course with a clerical assistance from my staff plus totally theoritical ideas from all those bastards higher higher level superiors. And you what when my full blown proposal with how-to-implement plans has been accepted, my presence was totally outcasted. i was merely treated as balaci balaci non-important figure. Previously i thought only AGMs can hold the leading PM, but until yesterday when i learned that one of those kaki jilat sales person has been appointed as the team leader, it truly proved that there is no justice in this shit division.

Now they still want to make use of my strength to do something hard again. Mother fucking TNOP shit!!